Your Word Upholds Me



Nothing is Impossible

Lord you said, “…I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you.”

Matthew 17:20 (nkjv)

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It is a tragedy when we consume ourselves with “TO DO LISTS.” To become  an individual that is excessively organized, systematized, prearranged, and logical is sad because there is no room for God. We prepare our lives strategically to comfort ourselves. It prevents us from hearing God. We spend our days in a rush and in panic of trying to complete our plans. Desperately wanting to achieve our goals. Not knowing that we are not hearing that small gentle, yet, powerful voice of God in our ear. How can we hear God or expect Him to shift our life when we are so compartmentalized with our “TO DO LISTS.”

We are most definitely preoccupied with the cares of our life. Our lives are in a box and it is full of projects, so full that we are not able to see our way out. Between running errands, dropping off and picking up our children, appointments, work, homework, preparing dinner, doctors’ appointments, hair appointments, assisting others and challenges. We have become lost in our ambitions. We are so industrious and occupied with our goals and don’t even realize that God is absent in our plans.

I get we are busy and there is affairs that need to be done in our life, but please I beg you, include God. He is an intricate part in our life that is necessary. He is the air that we breathe. He gives us the capacity to engage in the “TO DO LISTS.” He is the source. Why not include Him. Why not seek Him first in all that we do. Life will be less complicated. The peace that we seek is not accomplishing the “TO DO LIST.”  It is achieving and realizing that our relationship with God is far more significant than any goal that we desire to achieve. Seek God first and everything else will fall in place.

Written by Nikki L. Davis

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Inspirational Scripture – Matthew 6:33

Brothers Of The Church

Where are the brothers of the church

Where are the Spiritual Fathers of the church who is Priest and Shepherds of our souls

Young men are wandering the streets

Standing on corners and locked up in jail cells

Responding as if they are doing what is necessary to live

Looking for affection all in the wrong places

Our young men are in need of you

Where are the brothers of the church I plead

Where are the spiritual fathers of the church who is Priests and Shepherds of our soul

Our young men are burden down with pain

Crying out through selling drugs

Having relationships with the same-sex


Robbing stores and raping women

Where are you brothers of the church

Where are you Spiritual fathers of the church who is Priests and Shepherds of our soul

I seek for you in the church but yet I cannot find you

I look for you in the street

You are nowhere to be found

Search for you in the schools

Yet you are still absent

In the home I still can’t find you

Where are you brothers of the church

Teach me

Teach me how to be a man

Teach me how to be a husband

Teach me how to be a servant

Teach me how to be a father

Teach me how to be a friend

Where can I find you brothers of the church

Where are the spiritual fathers of the church who is Priests and Shepherds of our soul

Written by Nikki L. Davis 

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This journey is tough and tedious

Down the road I believe I see a small shadow of LIGHT

I sense I am drawing near

The closer I get the tougher it becomes

It is no doubt that I am proceeding in the right direction

The opposition is getting stronger

Challenges and struggles are appearing out of know where

This journey is bringing me trials

Struggles I never thought that I will have to encounter

As I look ahead

The LIGHT is no longer a shadow it is a beautiful LIGHT

A LIGHT that is drawing me nearer and causing me to gain strength

A LIGHT that resurrects the power that is deep down inside battling to get out

I focus on the LIGHT

It represents the PROMISE that I am pressing towards

A PROMISE that never changes but stands firm in its stand

A PROMISE that gives me the push to remain strong in my challenges and struggles

A PROMISE that the Lord has given me since my creation

Satan is mad

I know who and whose I am

He is fighting me with weapons unheard of and he will not stop until he see me dead in my creativity

Just like him I will not give up

I will not be satisfied with mediocre life

I will not be satisfied being less than what God created me to be

I will not be satisfied until I fully become what my creator has called me to be

The PROMISE is what I thirst for

I crave desperately for it

I won’t stop until I embrace the PROMISE

The PROMISE is what gives me the influence to remain in my stand and not be move by the winds and waves

It gives me the focus to fix my mind on the knowledge which was given to me

God’s word never changes

It will do what it is accomplished to do

I will fight!

Written by Nikki L. Davis (09/10/2015)

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James 1:2-8


Have you ever felt like you were in this world all alone

Watching each day go by as you are in a stand still

My life is on pause

Trying to find a sense of belonging BLINDED BY FEAR and postponing

When will it by my turn to shine and be in the spotlight

Not sure of my thought life

Thoughts of insecurity

Fragile from past experiences


Trying to break free from fear and anxiety

How do I get out of here

I’m filled with fear

Fighting for my life wanting to be free

Free from past insecurities

Free from unforgiving thoughts

I want to be consumed with HE

The chain-breaker that is said to set me free


Only if He come near

Oh the closeness that I desire

To be set on fire with the Love

that will entrap me in His presence

Because I am relevant

Relevant to the King who is He that can set me free


Oh come near

A near that will change my life

That will set me on High

He paid the price

So that I might live


Please come near

I can taste freedom

But can freedom taste me

Chains that held me down we became acquainted

Don’t want to leave but I need to leave


Written by Nikki L. Davis 

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Have you ever been blinded by fear? Share your story.

The Tears I Cried

I look into his eyes they were as blue as the sky on a summer crisp day.

He spoke, “I did not see you today?”

She answered, “I know. I wanted to come.”

He replied, “You look beautiful. I wish that I could have had an encounter with you.”

Vanessa is an intelligent and beautiful young woman, but she lacks self-confidence. Fear is her friend. Mental and sexual abuse will shred every piece of confidence that you have. Physical abuse is less painful than mental and sexual abuse. The physical scars will soon fade away but thoughts and words will always rewind itself in your mind.

Vanessa was mentally and sexually abused by people she trusted. She did not know she was being abused. It developed into her natural way of life to receive the demands of men who would misuse her at a young age. Vanessa grew up in a single parent home with three siblings. She was birthed with hopes and dreams, but her past kept slithering into her life. Dreaming and writing was her hobby. It was a way of escape from the battle she was having within herself. The excruciating pain and the thoughts of joy that she felt she wrote it down. This was a gift that nobody could rob from her. It birthed power and joy in her. Every day was a battle for Vanessa.

Vanessa cried, “Lord, why is it that I allowed so much pain to happen to me? What was said to me that I did not fight back?”

Vanessa’s innocence was taken away from her when she was a little girl. No one knew the pain that she felt, being molested over and over again by the babysitter’s son, on top of being bullied every day, was horrifying for her. Low self-esteem took rule of her life. Hiding behind others strength was her character. The meeting that Vanessa missed, was with this strong and handsome gentleman who has fallen in love with her. He was drawn to her, but Vanessa constantly avoided him. Her past did not accept him.

He said, “Vanessa, you are making it difficult for me to attain you. Have you thought of a time that we might be able to meet?”

She said hesitantly, “I…I don’t know.”

Vanessa is frightened. Scared of what might happen and might not happen. She has been damaged. She has not allowed herself to heal. It is difficult to heal when you do not face the issues in your past.

He said, “Vanessa, I really care about you. I will like for us to get-together.”

Vanessa replies, “I understand, but I’m not sure.”

He responds, “Sure of what? OK, but remember I will never leave you nor forsake you. I will always be here for you.”

Vanessa held on to those words tightly. She always felt like she was alone. That night she tossed and turned trying to go to sleep. Fighting memories that always seem so alive to her. She wrestled with words such as:

“You are ugly and too skinny.”

“Why don’t you look more like your sister?”

“You will never be nor have anything.”

She did not know her worth or how valuable she was. Her identity became what people called her.



You are not good enough.


Nappy Head.

Vanessa was going through an identity crisis. She wanted to be successful at everything she do, but she did not know how to “BE” it. She attached herself to people who appeared to be effective and powerful to her and allowed their voice to become her voice.

Vanessa responds, “How do I know that I can trust you?  People that I did trust have hurt me many times. They took something from me that was precious. I allowed them to destroy who I was and I can’t get it back. They killed the inner me, my soul.

I trusted them and now look where I am. I’m living in poverty, struggling and trying to make it hour by hour, fighting depression and suicidal thoughts of wanting to abandon myself.  I want to love myself, but I don’t like who I am.  I went through pain, misery, dejection, and men doing all sorts of things to me. Men that took advantage of my innocence and destroyed my whole life with their sickness. They left their fingerprint on me.

My childhood is full of bad memories that I try hard to forget. I trusted someone then and they manipulated me and I refuse to trust anyone now. I just want to be left alone.”

He whispered, “Vanessa, I would like to console you. I understand the pain and hurt you have endured, but weeping only last for a while, your joy will come in the morning.”

Vanessa felt like crawling up under a rock and never reveal herself again. She prayed and cried and prayed and cried again. She remembers the gentleman’s words “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” She asked herself, “How can someone love you that much?”  She contemplated on whether she should give her time to this gentleman.

The gentleman was constantly speaking to her, knocking on her door and asking to come in. Her pain constantly rejected him. He knew what he wanted and persisted.

He said, “Vanessa, Let me love you. Comfort you. Allow me to restore you.”

Her eyes open as he spoke to her pain.

She softly said, “Yes Lord, restore me. I need you. I cannot breathe without you.”

He said, “I am here Vanessa. Devote some time with me, share with me your worries and I will fight your battles for you. There is no need to look back any longer. It is time to move forward. Stop beating yourself up for someone else’s mistakes. Don’t you know that I love you? You are fearfully and wonderfully made in my image and no one can take that from you. I would like you to forgive the individuals that did those horrible things to you and I need you to forgive yourself. Otherwise, you will continue to have hindsight vision and I want you to continue to move forward in life. Vanessa you are an over comer and you are strong. You are victorious.

Vanessa I want you to look in the mirror and tell me what do you see?”

She replied, “I…I see sadness and brokenness. A scared little girl.”

He said, “Vanessa look to the hills from whence cometh your help, I am the hills. I desire for you to just sit at my feet and I will heal you.”

Vanessa cried, and she cried uncontrollably; worshiping the father at his feet. She undeniably poured her heart out to him, pleading for forgiveness and asking him to exchange her pain for healing.

Vanessa prays, “Please forgive me for not trusting in you. I am so sorry. Take this pain from me and allow the spirit of joy to overflow in me. Mold me to be beautiful inside and out. Cleanse me and take the spirit of anger and rejection out of me and give me the spirit of peace and a sound mind. Fill me with love and kindness. I want to look more like you each and every day of my life. I do not want to battle with this pain anymore. I give to you all my pain, sorrow, and heartache. I give it to you. I don’t want it anymore.  I just want to be free. Free from pain and misery. Free from gloominess and sadness. I just want to be free and content in you. I will no longer live in discomfort and misery, but liberty in you is all I want and need. Lord, thank you for being my friend. I want more of you. Thank you, Lord, for freedom.”

He responds, “Vanessa, if you will only recognize how much I love you. I died on the cross just for you. I carried the cross so you can realize that you have strength to endure. I open blinded eyes so you can see spiritually. I healed the deaf so you will be able to hear the instructions I have for your life. I made the lame to walk letting you know that you have the victory continuously. I raised the dead so you will not have to live in the past no more. I walked this earth just so you can understand how to overcome the trials of this world. I became your example. I want you to know that you are more than a conqueror. If you did not go through any trials and temptations of this world you could not experience being more than a conqueror. The trials and test you are going through and the key word is through, are not there to kill you. It is there to strengthen you and give you spiritual muscles.

I went through rejection, pain, was talked about, lied on and cheated to let you know the enemies are your footstools to help you get over. I even allowed them to nail me to the cross. They nailed my hands and feet to the cross. They also pierced me in the side and put thorns in my head, but I prayed to my father to forgive them because they “no not” what they are doing; just like I want you to do. Satan meant it for evil but I meant it for good.  See, there is one thing that the enemy did not realize. That in three days I will rise again.




So, stand Vanessa. You have the victory. You have the authority. I was there with you all of the time. I am the one who made sure you did not lose your mind. I am the one that protected and prevented you from having the thoughts of killing someone. I am the one who covered you with the blood when you were committing promiscuity.  I’m the one that filled you with my love when you felt all alone. I am the one who stood by you and with you when you felt like nobody cared. I’ve seen you, when you took all of those pills and tried to commit suicide. I’ve seen what they did to you, but yet I said live and not die. I saw when you ran away from home trying to run away from your problems. I’m the one who covered you with grace and mercies every morning.”

Vanessa said, “Lord, if you’ve seen these things why did you allow it to happen to me?”

He replied, “Vanessa, do not be surprised at the painful trials you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. Trials and test come to make you strong and it builds character in you. I knew you were a winner when I created you. The first time I saw your smile it illuminated me. When I hear your voice it is music to my ears. I knew you had the capacity to handle the trial. I also knew that along your walk of life that you were going to run into men, women, and children from all walks of life that need your testimony. I knew these people needed you, Vanessa. I created you for this very moment. They need someone who would stand up for them. Pray for them without ceasing. They need someone who would war for them in the spirit. You are there lifeline. Someone who has the capability to run the race without getting weary and I saw that in you. The problem was you did not see that in yourself. I predestined you to be a soldier. Just when you thought it was getting worse it was getting better. I knew you would come out with your hands up surrendering all to me. See, this trial is not about you it is about you simply saying yes to me. It is about you trusting and relying on me again. You are the love of my life and I created you for greatness.”

Vanessa cries, “My Lord, you are my Rose Of Sharon. When I am low you are my Lily Of The Valley. When I get weary I find Rest in You. When the enemy is all around me you are my shield and buckler. Thank you, Lord, for reviving me with your love. Your word is a banner over my life.”

Vanessa realized that this gentleman was all that she needed. Her life was complete in His presence. Vanessa overcame one of the biggest obstacles in her life and she devoted her entire life to her Lord. They spent time with each other on a daily basis. Their communication was strong and clear. Their devotion to each other was the air they breathed.

Written by Nikki L. Davis 

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 Devotions: Song of Solomon 2:1  John 19  Romans 8:37  Acts 5:31  Matt. 18:21  Luke 17:4  John 4:24  Luke 7:37

James 1  Psalms 139

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